Yulsic – Point of View

Their eyes met. But no words come out from Yuri’s mouth. She averted her eyes from Jessica’s and walked away to enter the store. Jessica is sitting on the big bench, scrolling her smartphone while listening to the music on her headphone.

Yuri close the door of the store and moved to the computer at the counter in front.

Jessica knew what she would be doing on the counter. Jessica suddenly have the urge to smile, thinking about it.

She unplugged her headphone. She put down her smartphone and call out Yuri’s name.

“Yuri-ah. Can I talk to you?”

Yuri closes her eyes, frowning. “What did I say to you? Never ever talk to me. Which part don’t you get that?” said Yuri when she start to search what she want on computer. She doesn’t even look at Jessica when she replied.

“It’s your last day working here anyway. Is it hurt to have a talk with me on your last day?” asks Jessica.

“Seohyun will be here. Talk to her and I will tell her to talk to you. Stop talking to me,”

“This isn’t about work. This is about what’s going on last month. I want your answer. And I want to explain-…”

“There’s nothing to explain. You liked me, I don’t like you that way and you annoyed me. That’s why I don’t want you to talk to me,” said Yuri. Finally meet Jessica’s eyes again.

Jessica pucker her lips. “Please. For the last time Yul. All I want right now is some..closure. To forget and never repeat another mistake like this,”

Yuri tuck her hair behind her ear. She folded her arms and leaning to the counter. “Make it quick. Like you’ve said. This is the last time we ever talk,”

“Thanks…” Jessica made a line on her lips. Yuri waiting for Jessica’s question.

“…When you figure out that what I’m writing a post about you or to put in the easy that I like you..what is going on through your mind? What is that you see in me? What is your.. I don’t know.. your feeling when you know that I like you?”

Yuri keep her frown face. She sighed and look down before unfolded her arms and put her hand on the counter. “You are a lady. You are a lady that supposed to be with a man. You’re pretty and you should be with a man. That’s all. You aren’t supposed to like me. I’m just a lady..like you. When I figure that K.Y was me, all I ever think about is making you to realize that I’m not into you. What favor I did to you is because you are too nice that everyone take advantage from you. Not that I’m into you,”

Jessica still glued her eyes on Yuri. “This isn’t supposed to be happen. Because I’m just doing a favor. I’m helping you when you need me. Its not like I’m doing it because of you. I am this kind of person. I help when somebody wanted help. I’m not perfect either so you shouldn’t like me,”

“To answer you. it was that. I’m uncomfortable with you being clingy up to me. I don’t like you smile to the smallest thing ever happen to you. I don’t like the way you laugh and making those jokes. I don’t like when you exactly know how to fix something but you called me. I don’t like it. That’s why you need to stay far away from me. You are somewhat I call crazy and weird,”

Yuri rubbed her temple. “Please. You don’t have to explain. Just stop right here,”

“…You know what I see in you Yul?” Jessica voice crooked. She held tears when she heard what Yuri said about her.

“You’re like a shining stone to me. Which doesn’t do anything but shining and just bright my day. I wasn’t that easy to get. I know a lot of man, I mean.. a man would be right there for me. But I happened to fall for you right now. When I start to know that the shining stone belong to someone else, I can’t give you that easily somehow. That’s why I start to become clingy onto you,”

“Please.. Don’t cry, alright? I hate to see you cry,” Yuri turn around her head and ignore Jessica that sit on the bench.

“I’m sorry. I just need you to know that I’m not asking for the feeling. I like you because for that reason. And I know I become annoyed to you for that reason also,”

Yuri kept quite about it. She keeps searching what she wanted on the computer.

“….I’m just gonna go to the restroom for awhile. Thanks Yuri-ah. For talking to me,” said Jessica.

Yuri actually cant see anything on the computer. Because the tears that floating in her eyes prevent it.

“Unnie!” a voice surprised her.

Yuri pretend to rub her eyes. “Hey Alicia. What are you doing here? Aren’t you supposed to be school right now?”

“Duhh. its holiday. Its June alright?”

“Yeah right. I forgot. I’m sorry,”

“….Are you crying unnie?”

” No. of course not. My eyes itched,”

“I’m gonna sit at the bench behind. I want to meet Sica Unnie. She said she had one final magic trick I can show to my friends,”

“Oh really? Sica unnie and her magic trick again huh?” Yuri giggled.

“Yeah. I like Sica unnie. She is crazy and weird. You know what I saw before I enter this boutique? She slaps her face and showed me toothy smile through her way to the restroom,”

Yuri smiled. Imagine that sight. “Yeah.. she is a bit crazy and weird,”

“But thats what unique about her isnt it? Thats why I like her. Do you like Sica unnie like I did too?”

Yuri give a soft scoffed. “Probably the way you can’t imagine, little girl,” said Yuri as she smirks a little.

TaengSic – Too Hurt

Jessica put on the coat and smile to her mirror. She inhale and exhale before takes place on set.

“Jessica-ssi, please try squeeze a little to Taeyeon,” the photographer ordered. She nods as understood by the order. Part of her doesn’t want discomfort her but as the order came from the photographer, she can’t disagree on that.

“Just don’t get to close,” Taeyeon hissed discreetly and smile to the camera.

“I’m sorry,” Jessica replied and try hard not to show her sad emotion to the camera.

Since Taeyeon accidentally know that every single post she made in her private blog, Taeyeon tries to get away far from her. Almost that everything that Jessica involve, she would make an excuse.

Jessica on the other hand, didn’t know about it until that one day:

Jessica asked her what Taeyeon did in weekend. She wanted to take Taeyeon to watch a movie that she once mention, want to watch it badly. Taeyeon replied an excuse but Jessica, to Taeyeon had seems to force her going out.

“I don’t wanna go a date with you if that what are you thinking off,” Taeyeon replied when Jessica keep sending massages.

“What are you talking about?? I just want to spend time with you more. This is not a date,” Jessica sent after that replied Taeyeon gave.

Jessica did not get the message instantly from Taeyeon. Jessica start to think that Taeyeon finally know about her feelings for her.

She bits her lips hard. At that time, all she wanted Taeyeon to know that she didnt asked for this feeling. She just happened to like her. Just before she about to give the long message to Taeyeon, Jessica sees ‘typing…’ below the chat.

“I know that everything that you have been updated in your private blog was about me. ‘I need you to know that I’m always there for you. Just give me a chance to enter your life T.K.’ and those ‘Amused by T.K laugh again and again’. what is this Jessica??

Look. I don’t want you to get any near me. Just do your own stuff. I don’t any of this again. I am never swing that way. All of those things you see me doing with anyone in this group is never real, alright? I have never been that way.

So I want you to stay away and never talk to me again. I’ve had enough of this,”

Jessica can’t believe what she had read. How did Taeyeon accessed into her blog. How did Taeyeon know that T.K was her.

Krystal came and pat her shoulder that moment. Jessica’s tears fall automatically.

—-

2016 April 1st.

“We will be continue with solo activities. No matter how pack our schedule one day, we promise that we will meet each other. SNSD never leave in us and we’ll be forever SNSD,” Seohyun wrapped up everything.

Finally SNSD at the peak of closure. Korean wave still making the biggest music industry and some of group make it to Billboard.

Jessica almost bumped out with Taeyeon on the stage when she mistaken the exit is on the left.

“That way..” Taeyeon almost want to laugh but she hold it in

“Thanks. And sorry Taeyeon,”

“What?”

Jessica almost let out the laugh when she sees Taeyeon confused face.

Lets talk about this behind,” said Jessica.

*

“And like I said. Thank you very much for your hard work. Thank you for being my lovely 8 sisters,” Seohyun makes a group hug.

20 minutes after those conference, they had to split because of some members had recording schedule.

Left behind Sunny, Jessica and Taeyeon and Tiffany.

“Fany-ah, care to join me to have a dinner?” Sunny ask.

“Sure. He becomes busy with Japan Tour anyway. I need a best friend right now,” Tiffany gave the eye smile and put her arm around Sunny.

“You guys go ahead, I’m gonna head to home,” Taeyeon said. She found Jessica with her iPhone.

“What are you sorry for?”

“Huh?” Jessica only lift up her head after that question.

“You said sorry. Why?”

Jessica smile and stand opposite of Taeyeon.

“I’m sorry for everything. I shouldn’t let you discomfort about what I felt last 9 years ago to you and I shouldn’t thought that the feelings I had is mutual. And..I want to say thanks too. Because during our latest album, you didn’t make me feel like I’m stupid. You respond to me although you have said don’t ever talk to you again,”

Taeyeon pucker her lips and nod. Jessica suddenly give her a hug. Taeyeon widen her eyes for a second there. After 3 seconds, Jessica let go of the hug.

“I’m sorry for that. But.. you don’t even have to see me again. I will be back to my hometown in San Francisco. Since k-pop get all around the world, so I got some model work there,”

“You mean…,”

“Yeap. Maybe built my family there too. You know falling for a handsome guy and he return my feelings. I might come back here for vacation so lets see if we meet. With our boyfriends or husband already that time,”

Jessica iPhone vibrate. “I should take this call,” Jessica smile. And she excuse herself.

Before Jessica turn to the exit, Taeyeon called her.

Jessica turn around her face. “Yes?”

“I’m sorry I can’t return your feelings. But I finally..and actually know how your feelings towards me…”

“…it was her?”

“You already know that?”

“So it wasn’t acting at all? You like it don’t you?”

Taeyeon sighed and nod.

“But its alright. I’m gonna meet her one last time this night and explain that I shouldnt let my heart think that this is mutual. Beside she has boyfriend so…we both will be safe there,”

“I’m sure you’ll be alright Tae. You are much stronger that I thought anyway,”

“Yeah. So no worries,”

“Just cry if you want too. More ease,” Jessica try to give the little tip.

“I will. Thanks Sica,”

“Welcome,”

Taeyeon let Jessica went to the exit.

TaeNy – No More

Sunny look at Taeyeon sips on the coffee carefully.

She rolled her eyes and groan when she look at Taeyeon expression. Taeyeon look better-..or might even worse than she thought. She even smile. Taeyeon likes bitter coffee. That expression Sunny saw earlier on Taeyeon’s face didn’t change despite what happened 2 weeks ago.

“Yah Taeyeon,”

“What?” Taeyeon asked.

“Are you aware which state are you right now?”

“Ermmm.. I don’t understand,” Taeyeon give lines on her lips.

“She despised you. She doesn’t want to talk to you, look at you and even get a help from you. Did you know that?” Sunny look straight to Taeyeon’s eyes.

“She’s leaving in two weeks top Sunny-ah. I can handle it for a little longer. Thanks for your concern,” Taeyeon scroll up her smartphone.

“I’m not saying that you can’t handle it. The way I’m seeing it, torture me instead. You’re my best friend. I know you. But she doesn’t know you and she just judge you because you like her that way. As your best friend, I am mad for you at her but you seems…natural. It’s like you act..you’re trying to act normal. When that…hurts you… A lot. I know because I’m your best friend Taeyeon,” Sunny ends.

“I’m alright. Okay Sunkyu?”

“No. You’re not. Sunkyu is the name you called me when you know I’m right,”

“Okay..Sunny. Listen to me. It’s….no more. Understand? For all I care right now, I want to end my career there and move on,”

“You’re lying,”

“What are you talking about?” said Taeyeon.

“You still like her, don’t you? Even she is like that to you, you still want to be there for her, don’t you?”

Taeyeon knows that Sunny was right. Having this girl for 6 years as best friend in her life made the tricks.

“….Yes. Despite what she did to me, I still like her. She’ll leave. Alright Sunny? I will forget about her and move on eventually. I promise that I’ll stay till next month. We agreed,” said Taeyeon.

“Tae, that was promise you made with her when she didn’t know that you like her. Now, she knew you like her, she didn’t even bother to look at you. Quit the job. That kind of girl wouldn’t remember things like this anymore. She is mad and dislike things around you,”

“…”

Sunny sighed. She look up.

“There is no reason you continue to stay. I heard that even if you try to have a talk with her, she goes away. What do you expect? That one day, before she leave, she realized that you didn’t ask for this feeling? You’ve never be in love before? That she’s the first girl you’d never thought you would see love when you see her? and she’ll talk to you again?”

“…”

Sunny rubs her temple. She can’t say anything else if Taeyeon decided.

“I cried every night,”

“Huh?”

“I cant be mad at her so I cried. I hate the way she despise me. But my heart felt guilty. Because of me, her smile disappeared–…”

“That’s the cue! You shouldn’t be there!”

“How can I? What reason should I tell my parents? My siblings? They didn’t know about my preference, alright? How can I break their hearts saying that I like a girl in my work place when they gave everything to me?”

Sunny closed her mouth.

“You don’t know how miserable I am when I happened to like her. I tried to stay far from her. But everything she does, everything she speaks about, everything..make me like her more. I became greedy. I need her to know that I like her. Knowing that she’s gonna marry a guy after she quit this month-…”

“Wait.. what? She wanna marry? Already?” Sunny widens her eyes.

Taeyeon paused. she looks down before answer Sunny. “…yes. and that’s why I need her to stay away far from me,”

Sunny furrows her eyebrows.

“She needs to stay away from you? Not the other way around?” asked Sunny.

“…” Taeyeon in silence.

“She already told me that she dislike people who cant think through. People who does not have faith in God. She dislike people who cant change for themselves. She dislike people who don’t know manners and shames…And to answer your question why I still want to stay there, is because I want to make her realize. There is nothing she should be afraid with me. I’m like any other girl. I cried, sensitive. Love to watch romance, reading novels. Beside all of that, what reason should I give to my family anyway if I want to quit,” Taeyeon stopped. She made the cup in front of her spinning by fidgeting her fingers to it.

“Tell them the truth, Taeyeon. They’re your family. They would understand,” said Sunny.

Taeyeon look at Sunny. She chuckled bitterly. She shook her head.

“Remember that old slut before Fany worked with me?”

Sunny nod. “What about that slut?

Taeyeon look down. “My family didn’t even try to encourage me to quit the job because of what that old slut did to me. How can I convince them that I really want to quit just because she despise me? They probably saying ‘Oh Taetae, many girls would be like that because they are jealous. Continue your work. If you don’t like it, try search for the new job right now and then you can leave it. You cant quit a job then find another job.'” Mocked Taeyeon.

“They would repeat another same sentences all over again. Believe me. What choice do I have?”

Sunny frown. Taeyeon smile to see her friends’ face.

“Do you understand my dilemma now? I know she despise me. But she will quit in two weeks top. Because she’ll be marry. But what do I get if I quit right now? It’s not like I’m gonna marry someone. I do pity her because she needs to see this face everyday. I do feel guilty inside. I do want to quit before her. But I can’t. Because on the other side, my family didn’t know about my preferences so if I happened to quit suddenly, they would say I’m an idiot. I waste the paid they gave me,”

Sunny can sense that Taeyeon hold another tears.

“Second of all, I want her to talk me back. Because no matter how much she despise me, my heart still flattered, beating fast for her. Yes. Like you’ve said, part of me want her to know that I don’t ask for this feeling and she is the first girl who I happened to see what love is. And before she quit for real, I want to talk to her one last time, I want to say I’m sorry for feeling this way and I want to say thanks for all what she had done to me,” continued Taeyeon.

“Believe me…It’ll be no more of it after that. She’ll leave and I’m gonna move on,”

Sunny sighed again. “It’s your decision anyway. I’m not saying you should but if there are no results after what you did, after all those sincere you’ve given to her, I think that you must be an idiot from the beginning. You are hopeless,” she stopped.

“..Lets talk about another thing. Please Sunkyu,” Taeyeon then reaches her smartphone.

Sunny scoffed in silent. She then smirk a little. She shook her head and thinking how this girl stuck her own self like this while Taeyeon knows she’s right.